Survivor Social Support Communities - Sounds great...it's not
This is going to be a short post, but more of an introduction to some things that I will be sharing coming up here.
In the near future, I am going to be exposing details of some things, that have harmed me personally, that has erupted from Facebook SRA survivor groups. In particular I am going to be sharing some very damaging things said about me by some very specific individuals in the unhealed “survivor community”.
It's hard for me, because I actually have cared enough to be cautious and not attack other “survivors”. I've tried to help survivors but they take my help, use me, then twist it to cover their asses. Some of these people are “well known” but what they don't know being well.
I have exhausted a lot of other means to contact these people and ask for them to cease and desist privately in a variety of very assertive and confrontive ways. One of these people that persists has, and is, involved in the Dayton Church of God. She and her husband attend and run a ministry through this church. This is the same church, whose Pastor swatted meal on a Friday night at dusk. I was 7 weeks into recovery of having an ostomy reversal, having my intestines sewn back together, and recovering from a stroke.
Why would I do such a thing? Why would I put some people front and center? Why would I post their very own words and give you my experience along with documentation?
Cause I’m tired of being targeted by unhealed survivors who assume somehow I've done something wrong. They assume this because I have not shared my story yet while their slowly being fed poison.
Cause I'm tired of watching survivor after survivor believe absolute bullshit because they can't truly critically think for themselves and it is just leading to more and more suffering, shame and isolation.
Cause I'm tired of being told that I am the bad guy because I am choosing healing modalities they've deemed demonic or examples as to why I am something THEY DEFINE FOR ME. You don't get to define who I am anymore. That is what Abusers do and I am going to expose all of it in very uncomfortable and controversial ways.
Cause I have gone through absolute HELL and I am not going to be quiet over here in the corner and look like a nice quiet Christian in isolation. I believe in Jesus. I also understand some things that I didn't before. If I do nothing and say nothing, and some other survivor goes through a similar Hell….then what is the point of all this suffering if I do not try to stand up for myself and say this IS GOING TO STOP.
When I start doing this…not only are you going to be shocked but it might cause triggering, cognitive dissonance, anger and all kinds of reactions. You can decide for yourself but I’m going to present to you things that aren't narratives being pushed into survivors.
Just be prepared that I’m about to piss off a lot of people, going forward, and I’m pretty sure noone understands.
Welcome to my recovery and I’m not going anywhere. I’m not going to shut up and darkness cannot overcome the light of Heavenly Father.
If you happen to be one of those people that I contacted in various ways already, many times, according to Matthew… you might want to quit posting narratives and lies pretty damn quick. You might want to take down your crap and disband your lie factories that you call “support” groups. You might want to accurately start owning up to it in actual biblical ways you seem to tout.
Cause despite the narratives..I've healed a lot and I'm done putting up with it. Freedom doesn't root itself in Fear. And I’m not afraid.
